I was there

My Biology Classmates

As I browsed my computer hours ago, I found a folder that was really familiar. As I opened it, I was hoping to revive old memories. Inside the folder where pictures... Pictures that were taken 4 years back... Yes. I was there. I once belonged to the group. I was once one of them.

I saw pictures of my first years in Ateneo de Davao University. Pictures of me with my classmates... It made me wonder, what did I do with my life? What happened to the Kristine that was once a friendly person, who never prejudices?

More and more questions circulated and bombarded my mind. Did I become a better person? or did I become a hate-able one? I remembered the days when we were together having lunch, studying every before the start of the class, sitting together in the open space of the Finster building, having chit-chats during classes, laughing together at jokes... I miss those days... How it hurts me to see myself today and where I am...

It was I who walked away from them... It was I who chose to be apart... It was I who decided to stay away... It was I who stopped doing things with them...

How pitiful? All these days I always blamed everybody on how they pushed me away... but the truth is, it was all my fault. I hope I could bring back the good old days... There is nothing better than having your classmates surround you through your good times and bad times...

*Sob* *Sob* *Sob*

Oh well, lesson learned... another thing that I want to change in me... the side of me who wants to block out everything that is around me...

God help me please... Amen.