He Knew

It was a stupid mistake to smitten in front everybody.
That gave me away...
I am sad 'coz he already knew even if I still wanted us to be friends...
Crush is an admiration when you like an attribute of a certain person. But does it mean that you have any plans to pursue it??? Who knows? But for me, it is a really great opportunity to know a certain person who is smart yet never forgets to be sociable...

Now, we never talked like we did before. Or did we even really talk? Maybe not. But I want to talk to him one of these days about anything interesting, funny, or what. Just talk. Hahahaha... How absurd am I? I know the time won't come

Then, what to do? Well, I have two options in hand. First is to "play-dead", which means that I will just act like nothing happened, no one ever knew, no feeling at all. But, it is a hard thing to do especially when there are people around us who know what happened and might bring up the matter again. The second is to stay away from him. However, I don't want to stay away from him! It's not that I am being selfish but I am willing to know him more...

What a stressful day! What a mind-boggling discernment. I wish I could have a sign.